Do you ever fear the unknown? I sure do. I actually will admit that it is my number 1 fear in life. Recently my husband, Jon, has been passing out at random moments. I know... Weird huh? It happened Jan 3rd, Jan 4th, Jan 25th, and Today January 28th. In the beginning of January we started taking him to the doctor and he had to go through all kinds of tests that turned out to be of course, normal. We now are pursuing the possibility of it being small seizures. We will be seeing the neurologist soon.
What is the scariest part of it all? The unknown. When will it happen? Why is it happening? What is it?
I like to be in control. I know you are surprised. When I am not, I literally go crazy. Maybe this is one of those lessons I just need to learn. Let go. I am not in control. I never have been and never will be and that is OK. The maker of Heaven and Earth controls my husband and my life. Why would I fear? He is the one who has given us life!
As you walk through life and the big U word hangs heavy on your heart just remember...
Isaiah 41:10
"Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Did I fail to mention?
My best friend reminded me of some things I failed to mention. I have sensitivity to gluten and peaches. The gluten allergy leads to fun nights of trying new recipes that are sticky and gooey. It also leads to many items that end up in the garbage. At least it gives me the great nick name of "the glut". I am also allergic to numerous medications and herbs! Who is allergic to all natural vitamins? Pick me!!! Every time I go to the infertility specialist and they say that they are going to put me on medication... LOOK OUT. I may just break out in hives, not be able to breathe or act like I am high and then crash. I may also be keeled over because of the bloating feeling that it gives me. I guess that is how I react to hormone shots. I just recently am finding that out :). Chalk it up to the oversensitive uterus. I know... You are so Jealous.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Hidden Talent
OK so I did not know that I had a hidden talent. What is that you ask? Well my hidden talent is being overly sensitive... period. End of story. I realize that I had an overly sensitive personality when I apoligize for something that I did not even do wrong. I also realize it when I start crying at a Biggest Loser episode or an American Idol story.
The next overly sensitive thing that I have, is my skin. I remember when I was in seventh grade I broke out to nothing. My face swelled up and I looked like a person from another planet. Putting lotion on it made me look even worse. Talk about worrying about self image... I was not off to a good start. I also had another one of these episodes when I went to Africa and got Sun poisoning. I literally looked like a person on Star Trek. I almost died on the plane because I could not breathe. Thankfully the Lord provided 5 physicians to be on the same plane sitting right behind us. They gave me some good drugs to help with my issues of being overly sensitive.
The next thing that I just found out recently was when I was visiting with my infertilitly doctor. My husband and I starting seeing him in October. We have been having issues getting pregnant. We decided together that this would be a place to start. After many prayers we decided to visit with Dr. Marcus. He was 99% sure that I had endometriosis because of my symptoms. When he performed surgery on me, he found no endometriosis. Suprise Suprise. He then proceeded to say that I have an overly sensitive uterus. This is why I am in so much pain most of the time. Of course I would. That goes right along with my hidden talent of being overly sensitive to literally EVERYTHING.
I know that most of you wish that you had my hidden talent. Someday I will train people in on how to be an overly sensitive person. That is me 100%. :)
The next overly sensitive thing that I have, is my skin. I remember when I was in seventh grade I broke out to nothing. My face swelled up and I looked like a person from another planet. Putting lotion on it made me look even worse. Talk about worrying about self image... I was not off to a good start. I also had another one of these episodes when I went to Africa and got Sun poisoning. I literally looked like a person on Star Trek. I almost died on the plane because I could not breathe. Thankfully the Lord provided 5 physicians to be on the same plane sitting right behind us. They gave me some good drugs to help with my issues of being overly sensitive.
The next thing that I just found out recently was when I was visiting with my infertilitly doctor. My husband and I starting seeing him in October. We have been having issues getting pregnant. We decided together that this would be a place to start. After many prayers we decided to visit with Dr. Marcus. He was 99% sure that I had endometriosis because of my symptoms. When he performed surgery on me, he found no endometriosis. Suprise Suprise. He then proceeded to say that I have an overly sensitive uterus. This is why I am in so much pain most of the time. Of course I would. That goes right along with my hidden talent of being overly sensitive to literally EVERYTHING.
I know that most of you wish that you had my hidden talent. Someday I will train people in on how to be an overly sensitive person. That is me 100%. :)
Sunday, January 18, 2009
The Beginning
OK so I am not a blogger. Not yet anyway. I am going to try. This blog is just going to be a journal of thoughts along this journey we call life. Random at moments? Definitely. Hopefully it does bring Glory to Christ and hope to others. I am going to start out by saying... Life is not what we expect it to be... but Christ never disappoints. No matter what.
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